Thinking about whats important...

A goal is a wonderful thing. It gives you something to work for, it allows you to push yourself past previously determined limits and achieve things you once thought impossible. But, as with all things, there is a flip side to this coin. A goal can also be a burden, a deadweight attached to the foot of your dreams. If it is too lofty, or too great, if you are unprepared, or underprepared, it can cause you great pain and suffering... It is hard to admit when you are in over your head, to acknowledge the fact that you are only human and thus have limitations. But it is only a failure if you pretend to have control, and neglect the very real, and very saddening truth that there are somethings that are outside your grasp. It is only a failure if you allow your dignity to be injured, and you forget about what is important...

-$50,000 is a lot of money, but thats not important.

-Market Days was a failure, that doesn't matter much either.

-I have less than two months to raise more money than I have ever seen in my entire life- unimportant.

-There are children suffering tremendously, who face struggles I can't even imagine. Who have never known comfort, have never experienced the love and safety that we take for granted. That's what is important. Not the goal, but the reason, the drive, the aspiritation and belief that a young kid from a small town can make a difference.

I may be turning away from the goal, but I will never turn away from the dream. I will continue to fundraise but I will forget the number, and instead spend my time and energy thinking about whats important...